Hello mothership...
now i’m back, at home, went to cologne and amsterdam, i’ve lost my voice, my body is aching, i’m totally broke and i’m feeling happy and joyful, reliefed and im-purified...again.
I want to share some experience from my little journey here…
The plan was to go to amsterdam to see the show because cologne was sold out very early, i guess it had something to do with the postponing and i was toally fine with that, though cologne has been the most visited place for me to see new model army and it has become a ritual thing. I posted a request for a ticket here but wasn’t really prepared for a response.
So Stephanie wished me luck to get a ticket and i mention that, because i believe and know that such acts, inner attitudes, prayers and wishes do work, it's a fact!
and then Markus offered one the day before the show and i hadn’t figuered out how to organize this.
When we wrote here at he forum i gave him my number to meet and connect and he just phoned me right then and it was great to get this direct connection by talking to each other instead of texting.
Strangers we were just before then but the passion connected us immediately. Thanks again Markus!
I’ve been working so much the last two months, originally i had a vacation planned from the 18th to the 23rd but i had to give up the 18th and also was working on the 19th and also a little on saturday.
So it felt i went directly from work to start my journey to see NMA and i just then realized that my last show was the SO36 after the faboulus Symphonie gig and that it had been 3 years without a show for me. (It felt like 5 years, that’s what i told David when we talked, one of the encounters of familiar faces from all the years but not really knowing each other)
The plan then was to go with the car to cologne, that’s what i told Markus and then go back home, to catch the train again to cologne in the early morning, to go to amsterdam. And i was prepared to to it that way and skipping the tasty beers before a show and making it a sober show for me. And then i thought..naah..maybe i can catch the last train from cologne in time and make it home, not having to worry to find a parking place and yeah, having some relaxed beers on the train and not being in the traffic.
A great start, finished work finally, feeling free to have a beer on the train (did i mention i love Beer..and btw, there was a documentary on prme beer-a love story, go check it out) and arrived in time to meet Markus before the venue and brought him a beer. A good one, not that Kölsch type of water..;-)
He was such a nice guy and we talked and he told me more about Amy and i really became curious. I watched some very short clips of her on youtube before. but didn’t want to spoil the surprise effect.
New Model AmyAnd then there she was. It was such a pleasure seeing and hearing her and the band and the power and passion and energy she brought to the stage. Beautiful, marvellous and just wonderful. It would be an understatement to say that i was impressed, there was more about that and it was resonance.
The show in cologne was great, i felt so good letting go, being there, singing, maybe more of shouting and screaming;-) dancing and enjoying the crowd and people. I was wondering before if i would have the energy to do that or maybe just go a little away from the moshing area, but energy was delivered and i sucked it in.
And right at the start of G&G i looked at my phone and saw:
i have to leave immediately!. It worked out quite well, got the train to the staion got the train home, had to walk for half an hour and was like a little befor 2 in my bed.
Got up at 5, went to the station again and left for my journey to amsterdam at past 6. I could have taken a train an hour later but then i would have only had 15min to get the other one and i know the Deutsche Bahn and you can’t be really sure if everything will work out while traveling. So i had an hour to drink coffees and then went to amsterdam.
And i love this mild december weather (be sure the cold will come anyway just a little later) and it was beautiful to walk through that city to my hotel.
I had plenty of time wandering round and i found a vinyl store and, goddamn it, so many great lps, also second hand and i couldn’t help myself just to buy some stuff. Watch your budget..
You wanna know what i bough? Of course you want to know..and i’ll write it down anyways;-)
So i left the store with:
The original Soundtrack of Z- a Film by Costa Gavras. This one has some special Tracks included by Mikis Theodorakis and it says on the back that this was a difficult task because his worked was banned and they obtained via underground sources..
The OST from Midnight Cowboy, a Film by John Schlesinger and the Music by John Barry..Themes from Motion Pictures of
Grand Prix,
Doctor Zhivago and
Born Free also by John Barry...
Henry Mancini conducts The London Symphony Orchestra with Songs from
Jaws,
La Strada,
Earthquake,
The Godfather,
The Towering Inferno..and finally a very obscure old record by a german Band
Cochise – Rauchzeichen…
Later i got me some
beers from the supermarket and sat down at the illuminated water-thing near the venue and watched people and enjoyed the lights.
In the venue i went to the bar and ordered: "6000 Grolsch please". The guy looked at me, asked me: "What?" I said "6 thousand Grolsch please", he went to the cash register and showed me a bill of 42.000€ and i said, "well no, i'll take only one please". We had a laugh...that’s the point, i love being silly and having laughs with strangers…
So then again Amy performed and this time i was more in the middle and closer and enjoyed the set more intensly. She is a force of nature…
The NMA gig was fantastic and i loved every minute of it. It felt more free and connected and there were some funny moments...i remember Justin saying something after Stormclouds like..
sometimes it could be mountains, or it could be stormclouds, but it was so like a cpt. obvious thing and i think he also found it funny...i just had to laugh...and that’s my reality, my perception and i know this comes from within me..so maybe i’m alone with this but i like it...i had such a great time!
I met jc in the crowd, it was cool to have a chat and i even asked him if he remembered me, it came from that feeling being so off and far away for a long time... jc, you’re a fantastic dude! And when he asked me what i was up to all the time i could have talked for hours, just to explain a bit of the journeys i made all those years and also to explain my situation now, which is a very strange one, as always, because i manifest those things which are almost every time chaotic and unplanned..
“we try to have control but chaos rules it all, it’s all vanity“., i’m again in a position i never intended to be in..“
i never wanted to get anywhere, i never wanted to get anything..“ but i like it that way and if i become fed up, i’ll quit..it’s about change
„you can’t change change“ which brings us again to Amy.
When the show was over i wnet out and there she was, at the merchandise. I had to tell her what i thought and felt and she was so friendly and a little touched and said she wanted a hug and we hugged and it felt so very normal, close, good and giving. I asked her if she would sign a cd for me and she found some very beautiful words for me and i feel honoured and blessed.
To me it all made sense and it fitted so good together,
New Model Amy..there’s the passion, there’s the spirituality, the inner sights, change and fear as themes of the inner process we all go through and deal with.
I’m still not familiar with Amys work but for example this is from the sleeve of the cd:
„it is only by tending to the wound within that we earn the wisdom to touch the wounds of the world“ „understand your shadow“ „honour your fear & your fear will honour you“And Justin also was talking about the fear as the main concept of distraction, to put fear in us so we forget to connect within ourselves..the media, the shit going on out there...
so don’t you let yourself be distracted from what you feel and what is your reality
"It matters not what you believe in.
It matters less what you say but only what you are.
It matters what you are. It matters what you are..."and connect to yourself, the world, the universe...We’re in this together….
