If you feel like that people, have you ever felt like starting your own little operation up?
You can get started on an idea, you can make it web based if you aren't confident of people meeting. I cant answer for other countries but in this one you can incorporate your little company and get a website up for less than £40. As you are a small business you don't have to pay an accountant to do your accounts (which will be exempt) or annual return, you go on companies house and do them yourself.
Clearly people are clever on here, hell Ive been on here since 2003 so I think I can speak, but I read a lot of people feeling lost and helpless. So I'm just proffering an idea to you.

I started my own engineering business up in the mid 90s and never looked back. I don't ever have to work for an asshole (though that probably put me in the asshole chair).

All I know is there is always a way to move forward, it may not be pretty or what you ultimately want to do but rather that than feeling bad? As Churchill said; If you're going through hell, keep going!!!!!