I Love The World for Hopeless Causes

[cthulhu]

Days into weeks of Sunday afternoons
Nothing much for us to say nothing real for us to do
Just watch the carousel go round and round in endless circles
in the pupil of the Deadeye watches, still the killing carries on
To the thoughts of the many from the minds of the few
Gather round and listen and I'll tell you how's it's done
Voice of reason, censored view
How they manage to make idiots out of everyone
All this information swims round and round
like a shoal of fish in a tank going nowhere
Trouble always begins with the naming of things
The language of love will bring us love
The language of war will bring us war
The way that all the words become true
It’s the things that you fear the most that you’re going to make happen
If we hold our nerve, they will travel right over us;
they'll be going so fast they will never even notice us.
We're only made of water
We'll be flying for the sake of flying - singing for the sake of singing,
The full moon gets us high
looking back down on the lonely world - We can change our shape into anything as often as we like
And everything I learned turned out to be wrong
And the strong are so weak and the weak are so strong
So sit us down, buy us a drink, tell us a good story
we all dance with this fire 'cause it's all that we know
Sing us a song we know to be true
We are lost we are freaks, we are crippled, we are weak
I don't give a damn that I never will be worthy
We are the heirs, we are the true heirs, to all the world

Fear is the only enemy that I still know

So let’s all go home now, look ourselves in the mirror
Throw our heads back and laugh.

[cthulhu]

I can play this in my head. Can you?

These lyrics, lines, words, when i read them they play in my head, with the music.
I tried a playful, associative way of just combining them with no specific intention.
An experiment.
I listen now to NMA for a long time. I could say for almost all my life.
Well, you know since those early years,
the PAST (if there is such a thing but that would be another discussion) and i see them, the songs, for me as Rock-Mantras.
Prayers if you will.
And for me it was always a conscius process to to figure out why.
Questions allowed.
So the music, the lyrics, the songs i’ve listened to soooo many times, the frequency, the vibration, the emotions have become a part of me.
And often the music just comes into my head.
I mean, out of (k)now-where.
It just pops up and then i see the other person thinking: „ok, now he will quote a nma song again..“

So, excuse me, but i have another one, i’ll post it here. For you;-)

[cthulhu]

I put my hands into the roaring flames
I felt the pain as it started to burn
For the lessons that we’ve learned have all been learned in the hard way
Get up early every morning just to put your make up on
And soon there’ll be nothing to deny
Face into the wind
We have energy left to burn, we still have it all to come
Face into the wind boys
There’s a long list of things for us in the glowing morning
They took me down to the Tree of Knowledge and said that I must resist
We think we are so clever killing heroes, killing magic,
And all I could think was – what kind of stupid joke is this?
Until everything that's sacred is brought down to our level
We took all the holy books and we burned them
And anyway remember that the times they are a-changing
So the gold on the coins is not real but money comes like a god
for Mammon is a jealous master, - leaves no room for any other
And money acts like a plague, then money acts like a drought
Get me out
There's a witch hunt coming, born out of all the American fears
Get me out, get me out of this place
All fueled by debt and paranoia and rivers of alcohol
There's a new purge coming, an inquisition for all of us here
We’re only fuel for them to burn, we’re only fuel for them to burn
All fueled by debt and paranoia and rivers of alcohol
No, there's nothing wrong here, nothing at all
For if our eyes got used to the darkness, we’d see the damage that we’ve done
Is this our sin?
Burn the castle
Down at the Union there we stood
And embraced like brothers should
Where arm in arm, come Abel and Cain, walking down to the sea
We become like a people listening for the bells
All just staring at the setting sun
Of a church submerged a hundred years ago
To gaze at the sun on the water
There's a city that waits under the sea

Now nothing you see out there is real,
It matters not what you believe in.
It matters less what you say but only what you are.
It matters what you are. It matters what you are.

[cthulhu]

Had to change the title. Right now i'm furious, angry and full of rage..I did nothing wrong is playing in my head...The company men arrive, business suits and poker faces..and they fired my boss, just like that, without reason, no warning...so i will quit too

[cthulhu]

A bit of explaining the background:

I got a new job in September last year as a chef in a house for elderly people. Owned by a big company already with bad reputation. I was there for the money and because i immediately had a good relationship with the house management, from human to human, so i thought to myself i just do my best under the circumstances. The circumstances are absolutely not my personal ideas of a healthy catering, but for mainstream habits they were normal. Too much sugar, convenience products and a hard calculation of what to spent on a person per day. Then there were problems with my boss in that department, a chef who had to buy the stuff and do the menues and he left me alone from day one. I had to figure everything out, improviesed a lot and due to his behaviour two helping crafts quit while i was working there. So i did for weeks three jobs at a time, had to do the job of the missing kitchen helpers then cook and also buy stuff and food from a supermarket nearby, 'cause the other dude just forgot and didn't care. He gave himself 5 days off, while i was alone. Whatever..then they fired him and asked me if i would do his job. I accepted, but then there was now one chef missing and i worked like 10hours a day.

But i always was backed up by the house management, encouraged and it felt good to get things done. So i also worked since the 23rd to yesterday, one day off on the 30th dez., beause i produced everything for that day the day ahead. They ordered a cook from the company for this week, so i could take these two days off.

And this morning he called me and told me, that yesterday two company men arrived, business suits and poker faces and told her to leave. Immediatley. Just like that.

So that's why I did nothing wrong was playing in my head, for her.
I know that this is about another topic but it also describes the brutal cold descisions made on pure numbers and statistics by those dumb soulless a**holes And oh, the numbers game and the losers to take the blame and she has become a victim of that.

So i directly applied for another job and next week i have a job interview.
That's the story.
Burn the Castle

[cthulhu]

She stares at the screen, at the little words of green
Tick the boxes only, only ones and zeros
There's a trace of frustration that crosses her face
Only tick the boxes, winners and losers only
Searching for the key she should press
I stare at numbers and stare at the screen
I stare at numbers and stare at the walls closing in
And oh, the numbers game and the losers to take the blame
And the acrid smell of fear, She fears for her job and the moments are passing

I swear we never asked for any of this

Forever the graphics curling on the screen
Forever the numbers counting on and on
Flying through the smoke
It seems to me sometimes there's only two ways to choose
In this whirlpool made of a thousands years
Either live in these ghettos and know your place
Or you trample over everyone in the human race
It isn’t just yet that we have to trample
Over each other
We will mix and mend
when we have to
We will celebrate
when we can

According to you
There isn't anything left to believe in
because you never could see
That there is everything that we are receiving

Trust to the stories, my love - it's what they are for
What's happening now has happened before
Another Imperial Day