how do you cope with the cruelty of humans?

[Amandistan]

I tried valium so I could sleep and not think. It did not put me to sleep but relaxed.

[Master Ray]

I tried valium so I could sleep and not think. It did not put me to sleep but relaxed.

And when you need one every night just to cope?  What about two or three, possibly with a glass or two of wine?  Oh, the wine ain't working, what about a bit of brandy?  Etc....

It's a slippery slope, I know that for a fact.

You're a grown woman, I'm not gonna dictate to you about what you should or not do.  Just offer you advice from my decades of experience and what I've seen in others.

I feel like your posts here are going a bit Groundhog Day.  If I can be so bold as to appropriate NMA lyrics for my own expression...

I put my hands into the roaring flames
 I felt the pain as it started to burn
 I've done the same thing over again and again
 As if I never ever wanted to learn

And, if I can slightly alter another NMA lyric....

You're never gonna save the world if you can't save yourself...


Take some time out.  Regroup your thoughts and recharge.  See how you feel after a few months.

[Amandistan]

I know it is not good. I drank nothing tonight and took no drugs.

[Master Ray]

Good.  There's nothing wrong with getting a bit zonked out, but keep an eye on your intake, eh?  Best wishes.

[ldopas]

Good.  There's nothing wrong with getting a bit zonked out, but keep an eye on your intake, eh?  Best wishes.

Ahem MR! 

There is plenty wrong with using drink or drugs to "zonk you out". Especially if you are in the state Amanda sounds in! Professional help, or removing yourself from the situation to get perspective and look after yourself is the best surely?

[Master Ray]

Good.  There's nothing wrong with getting a bit zonked out, but keep an eye on your intake, eh?  Best wishes.

Ahem MR! 

There is plenty wrong with using drink or drugs to "zonk you out". Especially if you are in the state Amanda sounds in! Professional help, or removing yourself from the situation to get perspective and look after yourself is the best surely?

Oh blimey, ldopas, I thought we were becoming friends...   

Kidding.  The point I was trying to make (that, re-reading it, was clumsily put) was that if you have a difficult life, there is nothing wrong with taking a prescription pill or, yes, having a few drinks or a joint or whatever, if it calms you down after a difficult day.  Just not EVERY night!  I have serious sleep problems that are eased by the occasional Zopiclone tablet, but I never take any more than two or three a month!

And you're right, in view of Amanda's situation, getting out and getting your head together would be the best option!

[ldopas]

Good.  There's nothing wrong with getting a bit zonked out, but keep an eye on your intake, eh?  Best wishes.

Ahem MR! 

There is plenty wrong with using drink or drugs to "zonk you out". Especially if you are in the state Amanda sounds in! Professional help, or removing yourself from the situation to get perspective and look after yourself is the best surely?

Oh blimey, ldopas, I thought we were becoming friends...   

Kidding.  The point I was trying to make (that, re-reading it, was clumsily put) was that if you have a difficult life, there is nothing wrong with taking a prescription pill or, yes, having a few drinks or a joint or whatever, if it calms you down after a difficult day.  Just not EVERY night!  I have serious sleep problems that are eased by the occasional Zopiclone tablet, but I never take any more than two or three a month!

And you're right, in view of Amanda's situation, getting out and getting your head together would be the best option!

Her MR, my drug used to be masses of diet coke, but since the "event" I've weaned myself of it and now drink, gulp, water.

But seriously, yeah I guess we all use alcohol, I do/did, now and again to get us out of it. The odd recreational drug, though I haven't had any for a decade, they do random drink and drug tests in my industry so it would be commercial suicide. So I wasn't judging I assure you.

But Amanda sounds very troubled and as a human being I thought the best is for her to draw back and take care of herself.