« Reply #11576 on: September 02, 2020, 12:21:41 PM »
You are all I think about when this guy / these guys play, and they've been playing a lot these days. When I was at their gig(s), it was all my thoughts and gorgeous, beautiful, sacred and treasured memories of you, that drew sooooo many, many, many tears, while I was stood there... in the dark, all alone, all by myself. It was you, you were all that was on my mind, just like right now. Just, like always. And when I saw that photo you took from the gig you attended, I broke down, the very instant I saw it, and kissed it with just as many tears.
It tore right through me, just like the one you took from the balcony in Italy. I felt it... from thousands, upon thousands, upon thousands of miles and an ocean away. And it fcukin' cut so deep into me, killed me, that I wasn't there to 'see' you, 'feel' you, 'touch' you, 'heal' you, b-r-e-a-t-h-e you, in. I wanted so much to be there, but I was too hurt, and afraid of what happened, of what might've happened again. I was terrified of a repeat situation of what happened on my last night seeing you in the ancient city, where all roads lead to. You're the only one who can hurt me. You're the only one who I'll let, hurt me... "because I love you too much" as Oldman says to his Little Woman in that epic tale of a film.
I was trying SOoooo hard not to cry, just like I've been trying these past 4 days, and right this very second.
Ohhh, 'GOD', my love, my one true love, please... don't let go, of your good dream(s). You are SO worth it, SO worthy. Don't listen to anyone who tells you different, 'cause they're all fcukin' blind, BLIND!!! I love and care about you SO fcukin' much. And I'm SO sorry that I do, 'cause I know it's not the same for you. And that's totally ok with me. That's why I really didn't come. I'll always, always love and care about you. Just as intensely as I did when you never even saw me, knew me, knew I even existed. And, the bittersweet beauty of it all, is that I don't ever have to be physically near you to do so. I'll love you forevermore, however far apart, from whatever side, wherever I go or end up in the end.
I pray you're doing ok these days especially... regarding this damn Corona shit that has made / taken hostage of the world and its citizens. I hope they find a cure / vaccine(s) that doesn't / don't have any or horrible side effects. I heard you cry out for more time, and when one cries out, an old good friend always listens. I hope your using this unexpected break of sorts to tie up loose ends, finish up old projects you've been sittin' on all these years, and getting that ol' pen going again. Write to me sometime, I'd love to hear from you. How about a book? You've got everything it takes and it's already been floatin' around in your head, not to mention, radiates through the history in and of your blood. You write so well, so movingly, so beautifully, and are the one person I care to hear from the most.
I hope none of this has pissed you off, any. That is never my intent or where my heart, soul and head are ever, ever at. Take care in these strangest of times, and 'one day maybe, we will' meet 'again, under fiery skies'.. just like the day when we first met, all those years ago.
Be well, my beautiful, beautiful friend. See you on the road again... someday, sometime, somewhere.
Chin-up, my darling. Stand tall. And, if it ever feels / becomes too hard for you to do so, or bear, then remember all of us / me. Use us, who love and believe in you... let us hold you up, my sweet, just like those majestic and countless towers we've seen erected, over the years at NMA gigs we've been to. It's not over. It's not too late, for you. Ok?
Now, don't mock me or laugh, when I quote / sing this one, but 'you're the best thing that ever happened, to me, or the world' and I am SO incredibly honoured and pleased to have been put here, while you were here too.
Thank you, more than words, more than words...
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'Once you have tasted flight, you will forever walk the earth with your eyes turned skyward,
for there you have been and there you will always long to return.'
'Just as courage imperils life,
fear protects it.'
.~.↝*↜.~.
⁂ Da Vinci ⁂
