I have briefly talked about this sad issue in posts past, but just lately it has been out of control. So far this week I have not slept in my own bed since Monday night. I have gone by this week with half or one hours sleep in front of the telly here an there. I do have things on my mind at the moment, but nothing serious that needs to be worried about. Daft as it is, I have been awake thinking about the new album and upcoming tour amongst many other things.
As far as I know, I have always been an insomniac. Some of my earliest memories are or being awake in bed. thoughts racing through my head, rerunning the days events. What could I had done differently or better, or what will happen from what I did do, or even just what was on telly that night.
Are there many other of us out there? I always related to the lyrics of No Rest for the Wicked since I first heard it in the 1980s. JS has hinted, to my mind at least to having the same, or similar issues in some of his other lyrics.
This year has been my worst ever. I have to get up at 8am to go to work, but rarely go to bed before 3 or 4am. I usedto go to bed earlier, but now try to only go to bed when I start to feel tired. But still lye there awake on a good night at least an hour. I accept I may need less sleep than others, but i DO need sleep. It just feels like it doesn't need me. .
Always bothers me when I have talked to people about it in the past, and they say, I am sleep in a couple of minutes after going to bed. They don't know how lucky they are.
Getting to sleep sometimes when I am wide awake seems to be like you going to die. When you are dead, your conscience is gone. When you are awake in bed, rerunning everything in your head, you still have it in your control. switching off seems to be on a par with a light going out, your life going out. I truly wish I had an on and off switch for the brain, but without it, it is hard to let go, turn off conciseness.
When I was in my teens trying to get to sleep, I used to get up in the middle of he night in frustration and write things. Sometimes a bit of poetry. In recently months, I have started doing the same again. Yesterday, or Thursday morning, I gave up lying there at about 5am and wrote a poem / rhyme about looking forward to going to the NMA gigs in November !!, it passed half an hour or so. Only ever do a bit of poetry when I accept the night has gone, and I may as well get up and do something.
Anyone else fighting this curse??
Any decent tips other than the tablets, all of which I have tried over the years, from the Doc, or over the counter. Bored of counting sheep
